Domains for Sale -

Music. My relationship with God, through Jesus, is being renewed after 20 years of keeping my back to Him.
I think that because he is glad to have me back,
God is moving swiftly & directly, patiently giving me knowledge and awareness of many things and on differing levels.

There is music/songs/bands that I have listened to for years without hesitation; thinking not at all of any possible bigger pictures; simply enjoying the music as it was.

Then in what seemed like "overnight" there became many, many, many, MANY songs that I simply cannot listen to. Utterly. Nada. Not one note. Not one word.

My friends, and others do not understand, when I say, "I rarely listen to music"

As a result I am learning a lot and observing steadily, people’s reactions to my current dislike / aversion to most music.

For example a woman co -worker I know is a musician and when has work to do my area, she will ask for me to play some music, commenting on "it’s so quiet" You can see the sheer puzzlement on her face when I say, No, not today"

I had a boyfriend who, after telling him that I can’t stand listen to his choice of music, he puposefully mocked me, played the music anyhow, etc. How defensive he got?!

It isn’t only him, I have another friend who has taken the ‘compassionate stance’ – as if my "condition" can be healed; and he will interject ‘new’ music to me now and then, talks about music, asks if I am still not listening to music etc.

It’s as if it is unbelievable to them.

So as I said, I am observing and learning, and personally keeping guiet as I am listening for God’s directions, daily.

Now it has entered my mind to disconnect the cable TV. There was a time in my life when having cable tv; or having the time and interest to watch tv was a foreign concept; I couldn’t believe that people would choose tv over the many other, funner things to do – then one dayI "got into it" Now I am getting "out of it".

Mind you I am disconnecting it in 3 weeks when my favorite show is over for the season! Ha! Always the self-serving edge right?

Oh well, it’s more for God and I to talk about, whom I love and of whom loves me back.