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When I seek God’s face, I have found that He most often speaks to me through his word and moreso, through music. Today has given me something that I just wanted to share.

I have a problem with beating myself up. I am my own worst critic. I can tell you every fault I have, how it needs to be fixed, what prevents me from taking the steps to fix it…I am my super ocd self analyzer. And I started to do that when I decided that I wanted to blog this morning. I wanted to tell you everything that I have done wrong in the past few months to draw me away from Jesus and go down the path of self-loathing. However, I no longer have the “right” to do that. I have had for as long as I can remember, a deeply ingrained self-loathing, but I no longer have the right do to that either.

I have been having an intimate morning with my Savior; and he has shown me that I am not my own. I have been bought with a price. A precious price that was not paid with rubies or diamonds or money, but of blood. Not the blood of a goat or calf…but of a person. It coursed through His veins and pumped his heart….and it was poured out for me…to tell me that He is for me.

When I am down on myself, he is for me. When I am weak and sick and tired, He is for me. When I am run over by life and doubtful if He exists, He is for me. When I am happy and life is grand, He is for me, too. When I am selfish and prideful, He is for me….and He will never forsake me. No matter what I’ve done or am doing or will do, He will never forsake me. He is for me. He is always in my corner telling me to get up. He is always running beside me to the finish line of life. He is there in my darkest times when I can do nothing but weep, holding me and weeping with me. He is for me when I am sick. He is for me when I am well. He is for me when I am broke and stranded.

That is why His blood was shed. So that He could be for me. So He could be with me all the time. That’s how much He loves me, and it’s the first time that I have seen His love for me like this. So I wanted to share that. Maybe it will encourage someone.

Grace n’ Peace,
Sunshyne